So i'm taking a page out of Alison's book and posting the things i am grateful for and also throwing in random things that make me go like this :). Things are finally starting to look up on this end. I started seeing a psychatrist and she put me on trazodone. It's been a week and I've had no side effects aside from a bit of drowsiness. Also, for the first time in three months I've gone almost a week without an anxiety attack and my racing thoughts are begining to slow down. I also have not cried...i can't believe it. It could be a sort of placebo effect because i know these meds take time to get the full effect but whatever it is, i'm happy(well i'm getting there). I've also began seeing a counseller and i'm hoping to plow through these emotional insecurites and I'm hoping that I'll have my life on track in due time. So here is my list, i warn you, it might get a bit lengthy...
having a car
laughing until i start snorting
my nintendo dsi
charlie brown holiday specials
getting my nails done, hair did or eyebrows waxed
reading kurt vonnegut
being so moved from a song that i cry
the poem "Howl"
going to school
techno that makes me dance in my seat
Trips to cape cod
...ha...i feel pretty good...